Monday, January 18, 2010
My students are napping. I can hear the faint hum of lullabies, I can hear my aid turning the pages of her book as she watches over them, and I can hear my other aid loading the backpacks for the day. It is peaceful in my building from 1:30 - 2:30. All 24 of my students are nappers. It is so cute to see them cuddled up on their mats. Laid out on the floor racing to see who will fall asleep the fastest. The lights are dimmed and the music is turned on, barely audible above the breathing of all 24 kiddos. It is not long before each one of them slip off into dream land..the sweet innocent students whom I wish I could keep innocent forever. I often think, what will these children be when they grow up, what things will they have to endure? What will they know that I didn't? What will they face? Will they be loved and return love?
Then I think? Did I do enough? Hug them enough? Tell them how special they are enough? Will they remember me? How much impact does a Pre-K teacher have on ones life... I am not sure how much I will affect their future, but I know I can affect their present! I didn't go into teaching for someone to pat me on the back. I did it because I wanted to make the difference in the lives of children..I want children leaving my room, smiling, laughing, believing they can achieve anything. I want children to leave my room, knowing their manners, loving their friends, their families, America. I want my students to leave my room eager to learn more. I want them to be explorers, ask questions to be leaders, to be fearless.
The peaceful quite time in my room is about to end. It is almost time, to turn up the lights and wake them from their afternoon naps. Some will already be awake, some will have to ease into it. Some cry, because they need just a little more time..and others are up and raring to go. Ready for snack. Ready to play! The quiet time is gone and now the room is full of life. Full of questions, singing, dancing, laughter. And it's exactly where I want to be.. right in the midst of it all..
I didn't really have a plan for today's blog.. but as I mentioned earlier- I am at work. And all day long today I have heard- (from staff, teachers, and older students) WHY ARE WE HERE? I CAN'T BELIEVE WE HAVE TO WORK! OTHER SCHOOLS ARE OUT... and it made me sad. Because, well I want to be here! I want to be with my students. I want to take advantage of every oppertunity to make a difference in the life of each of my students!
Thursday, January 14, 2010
Tuesday, January 12, 2010
The conversation went a little something like this…
Waitress- Are you still with that one guy?
Paying Out-Oh, yeah-Mike? We got back together- UHHgain.
Waitress- Good, is that his baby you are carrying?
Paying out- Oh- I am not sure.. But it is either his or Jakes, I think.
Waitress-Well good. I am glad things are working out for you guys.
Paying out- Yes, things are okay…
My Mom and I just looked at each other. For one, they didn’t care who heard the conversation and for two, it seemed like they were perfectly fine not knowing who the baby daddy was.. The longer I sat there.. the more saddened I became…
Maybe I didn’t have the right to be sad, maybe I was being judgmental, I don’t know.. but all I know was it made me sad. It made me want to fix all that was wrong in the world. It made me want to reach out and talk to young ladies about self-worth and the importance of not sleeping with whomever you’re with at the time.. It made me wonder was she ever taught these things in the first place.. or did bad choices lead her down a road far from what she knew was right..
I think what broke my heart the most.. was it appeared to be no big deal to either girl. No big deal that a baby was about to be brought into this world..not knowing who the Dad was.. a sweet innocent baby- I am sure it will bring joy-but at the same time heartache. Someone will have to hear.. I am sorry you are not the daddy.. or the girl may have to hear.. I don’t care if I am the dad or not..
And then I had to make myself stop thinking about it.. because, in truth- I will never know and honestly it is probably not for me to know.. but I do know.. that I prayed for that girl. I prayed that she would find the love that she was searching for.. and I prayed for that baby.. that he/she would be surrounded with love.. and I prayed for me.
God please give me a heart for people. Give me wisdom to know who and how to reach out to them. Help me not to pour out judgment on others.. but to pour out your Love..You constant Unfailing- LOVE.
Monday, January 11, 2010
I did not call my friends over to play The New Super Mario Bro's Wii into wee hours of the night... and we certainly are not in our 30's...
I am not stuck on level 6! I am not thinking about calling some kids over to play with us.. just to get past that stinking level...
On Sunday afternoon I did not try to clear off the DVR before American Idol, Greys, and Private Practice start back.. One episode did not turn me into an emotional mess. The thought of that episode did not just bring tears to my eyes as I am writing this... (Private Practice-The House Blew Up, Someone Died, All is Sad-Yeah that one.. : ( )
I am not addicted to Words With Friends on my itouch.
I did not wait until this morning to get my lesson plans together. I am always totally prepared.
Thursday, January 7, 2010
Wednesday, January 6, 2010
Monday, January 4, 2010
I am not dreading going back to work tomorrow, I would never be so selfish to complain about going to work after I have been off for two weeks straight-what kind of person would that make me?
I am not secretly happy that the temps will be below 40 degrees tomorrow morning-because if that were true
and it is , the darling little students at my school would have to stay in for morning recess- and me, the teacher who is scheduled for morning duty the next two weeks would be off the hook.
On the other hand…I am also not secretly sad that the temps will not be above 40 in the afternoon, meaning my little darlings will have indoor recess in my room.
I did not stop in one of the makeup isles at wal-mart and have a little talk with Jesus.. concerning the little girl screaming and crying in the next isle over.. My prayer did not go something like this.. Dear God, Please help my students not act like that little girl tomorrow- I know they will be tired and out of routine-but please help things run smoothly-Help me not to be the one throwing the fits J Amen…
My 30 something best friend and I did not go see The Princess and The Frog today without any children, um for the 2nd time…
I certainly haven’t taken the time to sit down and think of some resolutions for the New Year.. I am definitely not going to pull out the ones from last year and just change the date… I mean how lazy would that be.. and technically that would kind of be breaking one of the resolutions anyway..right? The one that will not be on my list.. Be More Prepared! Be More Organized… Silly things like that would never make it to my list…
my um, list that is usually lost or forgotten by Februay.