On Sunday evening after church my mother and I went to pizza hut for a late supper. We were 2 of the four customers in the dining area. The waitress, a 20 something cute girl-was carrying on a conversation with someone across the restaurant. The lady was paying out..
The conversation went a little something like this…
Waitress- Are you still with that one guy?
Paying Out-Oh, yeah-Mike? We got back together- UHHgain.
Waitress- Good, is that his baby you are carrying?
Paying out- Oh- I am not sure.. But it is either his or Jakes, I think.
Waitress-Well good. I am glad things are working out for you guys.
Paying out- Yes, things are okay…
My Mom and I just looked at each other. For one, they didn’t care who heard the conversation and for two, it seemed like they were perfectly fine not knowing who the baby daddy was.. The longer I sat there.. the more saddened I became…
Maybe I didn’t have the right to be sad, maybe I was being judgmental, I don’t know.. but all I know was it made me sad. It made me want to fix all that was wrong in the world. It made me want to reach out and talk to young ladies about self-worth and the importance of not sleeping with whomever you’re with at the time.. It made me wonder was she ever taught these things in the first place.. or did bad choices lead her down a road far from what she knew was right..
I think what broke my heart the most.. was it appeared to be no big deal to either girl. No big deal that a baby was about to be brought into this world..not knowing who the Dad was.. a sweet innocent baby- I am sure it will bring joy-but at the same time heartache. Someone will have to hear.. I am sorry you are not the daddy.. or the girl may have to hear.. I don’t care if I am the dad or not..
And then I had to make myself stop thinking about it.. because, in truth- I will never know and honestly it is probably not for me to know.. but I do know.. that I prayed for that girl. I prayed that she would find the love that she was searching for.. and I prayed for that baby.. that he/she would be surrounded with love.. and I prayed for me.
God please give me a heart for people. Give me wisdom to know who and how to reach out to them. Help me not to pour out judgment on others.. but to pour out your Love..You constant Unfailing- LOVE.
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